A loser want to make a plan

Hi, it's been so long

Life,

Up and down,

Left and right.

Happy, sorrow, thrilled, upset, and doesn't feel anything. It's normal to me now.

Strive to make a win everyday in every step, it's hard. But I'll keep trying.

But today, at 4.00 am Monday on 3rd April 2023, 12 Ramadhan 1444H.

I did find that, I'm unable to functioning well because there aro no 'ikhlas' in what I'm doing, and also loss of way. I do know my destination but the path are confusing cause I didn't see one.

Yes, the fool me keep saying that I'm alright. Everything will be okay, but everything are not working. My feeling are not working, my energy didn't filled up.

Distraction keep coming, inside and outside. It's....well I want to escape from it.

But the loser still want to strive and make the plan. 

Its a plan for a year.

Hope I'll be fine.

Tq for write this up, me...

and I appreciate that you stay to read my rumbling. (°•°)/